Whenever I give some thought to this current relationship...

I don’t know what I want, where to go, what to do… who to listen to… just lost…

Whenever I start thinking of our future…

Sense of unease… followed by stress… I can’t help but start crying… and the thought of letting go came to mind…

I keep running away by putting all these thoughts aside… just only looking at the presence

But the question is; how long can I keep running? How long do I intend to run?

Things that I have always wanted to do with my other half… I thought of them, I brushed them aside… looking at all the things I wanted to buy for us… hold them in my hands… Left them back on the shelves… and walk away…

Deep down… I still fear to commit to this relationship…

And the fear have never gotten any lesser... after my request for breakup 2 months ago...